I'm a talker.. and as you know I did spend 4 years with someone I thought I was going to be with forever.
Truth be told I dont think I was ready.. ready to marry someone who wasn't going quite as far in life as I had hoped but he opened me up. To cry and love every single day i knew him.
We weren't perfect but we never argued without a resolution which wasn't often. When we would meet we were inseperable and people around us always wanted to know how long we had been together. He always held my hand, and seemed proud when he'd introduce me to his friends.
He was my first too.. and I loved him every minute. He held up a high bar for anyone else and I have yet to find someone as kind, as generous and as sweet as him.
I regret alot of things but we tried... even when we broke up. When I told him I had had enough. He was kind then, he never resented me and tried to be my friend and I pushed him away.
The thing is .. couples bicker... but never attempted to make that person feel sad.. or depressed in front of other people.
At 2am I'd have serious menstrual cramps.. i'd text him and he'd call me and talk to me until i fell asleep. I'd fall asleep hearing I was loved no matter what. No matter how bloated I was or how ugly i felt.
He loved me even after all that.
I miss him alot of the times because I dont know if I'll ever be able to fall in love like that again.
I hope that answers at least a part of your question.
