I know that I am uber sensitive to what goes on around me and because of my job I have to block it off.
Block it out.
Block what other people think out and it comes back to me at the oddest moments. When I'm drunk.. In a conversation.
I read to much into things and it burns me at night.
When I lay down and I reflect.
I have a beautiful life with beautiful friends.
and im without a man and this seems to cancel out everything i've worked for.
I was so happy just trudging along, working my ass off and going to school.
I seriously feel as though i've been brainwashed.
A frenemie posted on my facebook about posting sadness on my wall..
She's right.
because deep down inside im a sad little girl and i'm watching my mom leave.
I'm caught in time and I cant rescue my 15 year old self.
Why is she so traumitized?
I keep wanting to blame my mother for something I know I can fix.
Dont get me wrong.. Living lower middle class isn't that bad..but ..
