Holy Macaroni am I having a difficult time studying!
The computer I am on in the open lab cannot handle maya for shit and its taking me forever to grab the internet on this piece of shit computer. I am up to my eyeballs in homework and I cant seem to just sit the fuck down without having to pee/potty/move/changesongs/do everything but finals.
FUCK-- I feel like im not dealing with someone important and of course I only have asdkjfdaskfj three or four more hours until i have to work. The FUCK is wrong with me ?
I cant lie yesternight I had the biggest urge to open facebook and post a fucking update status aaaand I'm realizing how ridiculous this is. I've made peace with my addiction but as far as wanting to post everything and anything to it, i find it hilarious that something so small can mean so much in the long run.
In a way, i do feel like im missing out but in a way i dont. I thought i would be far less weird about it and be able to concentrate a tad more. .but i think im just ignoring issues that should be addressed once finals are complete. I.e; my quest for a finished portfolio piece that doesn't look like garbage. I'm neglecting this 3d thing for a while and its killing me.
I have alot of ideas im not putting into action and that reflects poorly on me.
So now that I have THAT out of my system this opera is making me crazy nervous. *CHANGE*
I keep rubbing my head and hoping magic will turn out. My impatience is getting the better of me.
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